I expressed surprise, explaining that I'd expected to need more than most people with my serious, intractable health issues.
"You look like the picture of good health!" both women exclaimed, as tears welled in my eyes for the second time that evening. I told them a little bit about the symptoms of CFS-ME, avoiding the misleading label of our ridiculously inappropriate name, and then we returned to the exit interview.
"The number of additional blessings you need has to do with how receptive you are to the blessing energy," the interviewer said. "Guruji just gets the information from the Source and writes down whatever is told to him." I left feeling calm and cheerful.
More emotions when I got home.... I let the tears flow as I moved through a few gentle yoga poses on my mat. I still wasn't sure what to make of the whole thing after dinner, but I knew I was getting benefits. Gone was the foul odor in my mouth from the dental surgery and new dental appliance. My breath smelled normal.
The next day, I awakened with a feeling of absolute certainty that I was healed on a high vibrational level. My physical body was weak after 20+ years of disabling illness (ME-CFS), and had a lot of recovery to work through, yet I felt the body knew where it needed to go. It had a revised blueprint now, and it was just a matter of building one element at a time, brick by brick, layer by layer.
Over the next week, I took my blood pressure and pulse several times a day. Despite the drops in blood pressure and rise in pulse (up to 95 from walking down a hallway), I did not have a single bout of palpitations. Nor did I experience the cascade of stress hormones that previously left me with dry mouth, fatigue, and insomnia. I slept 9 - 10 hours a night. For three days I had detoxification stress ranging from constipation to intermittent headaches, body aches, and slight nausea, for which I took activated charcoal and chitosan. On Wednesday, I did some weight training for the first time in 5 weeks, and although I needed to rest after my 10 minutes in the gym, I did not get a stress reaction. I continued to build strength towards the end of the week. For the last two days, my pulse has stayed below 85 and my blood pressure has been at a healthier level more often. The hellish experience of the last six weeks has finally ended.
In addition, I am experiencing more sweetness in meditation and less struggle with a racing mind. Each time I meditate, I have a new experience of awareness, or of peacefulness. In meditation I have a sense of God's palpable presence that is different from anything I have experienced in the past. I have worked with many spiritual teachers, energy healers, physicians and holistic practitioners in the past. This is the first time I have ever experienced this wonderful sense of inner certainty!